A breath of fresh air...

The last week or so has been hard on me. But this past weekend was just about as close to heaven on earth as it could be. I found that now that I have let go of the things that were holding me down, making me feel worthless, I have begun a new chapter in my life. Just being with my kids and my family while I can is such a blessing. I spent time with my husband, who will be deploying to Iraq again soon. My boys, we went to all their games and cheered them on. I spent time with my step son, whom, despite what people feel my opinion is about him, I love him a ton. He will be going to live with his Mom again this summer, so we are spending a lot of family time together. My younger boys cuddled with me on the couch and put their heads on my growing belly. Nathan felt Riley kick for the first time on Sunday. It is times like this I thank God for all the blessings I have. I spent time with a new friend on Saturday afternoon, I took my younger boys for a play date, the kids played so well, no yelling, all the kiddos were helpful and no fighting. Me and Charlie talked and talked, it was great to have another mom on the same level as me to chat with. I even got to snuggle her baby girl, Lily. It really was a nice weekend. I feel like I am starting fresh this week. I have nothing holding me down now. I am moving forward with school and finished another 3 chapters last week, so I am getting closer to being done. My house is nice and clean (minus the mystery of the disappearing dustpan) and my kids are all down to one sport a piece. I am enjoying meeting the new people in my life, but I think I will be flying solo for awhile. Just me and my kids, like it used to be. I miss my old friends, and welcome meeting new people, but drama gets the better of people sometimes and I am content being alone. I guess I am like my husband in that sense, he doesn't even like having neighbors.